So the truth is, I am afraid of suffocating, not being able to get enough air into my lungs. I experienced that sensation when I underwent sinus surgery. The anesthesia that had been administered dripped from my nasal cavity into my throat, numbing all feeling in that region. I could not feel myself breathing. My blood pressure was through the roof. My heart was beating out of my chest. I thought I would die. I was terrified even though I knew I had to be breathing.
Was this how the disciples felt though they knew the Master was on board? Even though they knew he was capable of, and had even witnessed many miracles? They were still terrified! Would I have reacted the same way? In the midst of the storm, when I have been gripped with fear, have I ever thought to myself, “God, don’t you care”? The answer is yes, and I have probably verbalized as much! It is written that we are saved by faith but on the Sea of Galilee, the disciples showed no faith at all. Yet Jesus still saved them. He gives us many chances to be saved as well, though we lack faith. I am so glad that he forgives us as he did the disciples when our faith is weak and that he gives us many opportunities to grow stronger. Lord help my unbelief.